love love love

so we have all been there, when you find someone and you fall completely head over heals with someone...i have been there..sadly twice...and each time i thought the person was going to make everything better, but both times i was wrong. so it taught me something...we can't rely on anyone to be there all the time. i still love the two people who i told those kiss of death words "i'll always love you". ..which reminds me i hate it when people say those four words (well three words and a contraction lol). I just find it to be insincere and i barely believe in the concept of anything in the human realm being forever. I find myself being more and more cynical as time goes on. I mean i want to be able to show emotion and let myself trully get connected with someone but i also feel who ever will get me in the future and even now will not have the whole me to work with because some parts of me will have been given away a long time ago. and this makes me feel bad especially for the current bf..i mean i got with him shortly after my last break up like a couple of month(s) after i got out of a long term with my last ex. i feel very comfortable with this current suiter but i already caught myself worring about stuff that happened in the last relationship. sometimes i wonder if love is really worth it and if i am even destined to find this elusive ideal of maybe getting marriedand having a family? i am not sure...and im not even sure if this really bothers me....but i am still young and well things always have their way of figuring themselves out...