family

haha! one concept i find the most hilarious is the concept of a family. i think it might be safe to say i don't really believe in families anymore. like when we are kids we are fed these lies that family will always be there and that your family will always care or whatever and im sorry but in my own family i have learned that parents love is CONDITIONAL, sibling love is when convenient, just what the fuck am i supposed to believe. i have two "brothers" and i hardly see them (if ever) and im pretty sure they don't ever think of us. i hardly even call them relatives i mean my niece and nephew call my parents by their first names instead of grandpa and grandma and they call me and my sister by our names instead of auntie or whatever. i just don't see how any of it works or why people feel like they need to start new families when the current ones they have don't even work. like the more and more i see im more and more debating if i should even get married just so i can be the end of my family trait lol. but whatever....